Dear Mom,
It’s 60 degrees out right now, and I have opened all of the windows. This is the type of day you’d spend airing out the house and putting fresh sheets on the bed.
I know you loved this kind of weather. I remember the clothes line that stretched across the yard when we lived in the apartment so long ago. I’d catch glimpses of you, pulling clothespins from your pockets, between the sheets billowing in the breezes that sometimes faintly smelled of the sea air. We lived only about 1.5 miles from Long Island Sound, after all.
Days like this also make me want to make chicken soup. Although you called mine “chicken stew”, and with a twinge of pride and funnily feigned insult, you’d say that mine surpassed yours and that you’d never make yours again.
This morning, I absent-mindedly surveyed my pantry, making sure I had all of the ingredients to make my soup (I don’t!!), and started calculating how much to make, becausek I was going to call to see if you wanted to come over and partake.
It was thanks to all of those hours spent in the kitchen with you that I love to cook. At first, time spent was by default, because whenever I was sick, you wanted me in your eyeline no matter you were doing.
I admit that at times, it was agonizingly hard as a kid to sit there and not ask too many questions and not to disturb your kitchen flow.
So I quickly learned ways to combat boredom, the biggest of which was to ask if I could help. I learned how to taste something and figure out what was missing. Was the sauce thick enough? The gravy lump-free? The potatoes peeled the right way?
Yes, there was your way, and the wrong way.
Even as recently as a few months ago, when none of us were able to match the speed and accuracy of your potato peeling, you ended up redoing it yourself (while we all giggled at our less-than-stellar potato peeling skills).
One other thing I never mastered, thanks to you, was the ability to cook a meal for less than 10 people. I guess it’s not in our DNA as my sisters have this problem, too.
So as I enjoy the cooler weather, and obsess about the hurricane that is just barely missing us, I smile although it’s been only 3 weeks since you left us.
We will continue the tradition of loving others through feeding them. And when I do make chicken soup next, I will “have some for you”.